I have decided tonight to...

...forfeit our date. At least, for the time being.

Don't get me wrong, I still like you.

But it seems that we've run out of the magic we once had, and I can't say for sure but perhaps its due to the fact that you're hurting.

And it's not the futility of the whole enterprise either, (because you know my love-hate relationship with futility) but it seems rather disrespectful to be going after you while you're still grieving over what seems to be a tragic, unrequited love.

I'd like to be a consoling friend, if nothing else, but very much like Love, Friendship isn't something you can force either.

I still owe you some good karma for my birthday wish, and until I can repay it in full, I hope my sincerest wishes that at the very least you don't hurt alone would suffice. Never underestimate the power of company, I say.

Until then, I shall be satisfied with this;

...which I still smile about sometimes. =)

The way you wear your hat,

The way you sip your tea,

The memory of all that,

No no, they can't take that away from me.