Somehow the idea of unconditional devotion and loyalty is just a tad too difficult, too above the bar. Someone should lower it a bit.
Tonight csa and I had a talk about infidelity and I told her that I am utterly skeptical about monogamy. To me, I said, infidelity is not a possibility, but an eventuality. It was a little unnerving to hear her say "of course!", which is why she conveniently doesn't believe in monogamy.
It's a little hard though, no matter how open minded we think we are. I have always wondered, if I could choose, would I prefer to be betrayed by the drunken, meaningless sex, or that sober kiss? On one hand, waking up convinced that the night before was a mistake means it was just that: a stupid mistake. The sober kiss however, means that there was something there that doesn't need alcohol or any other catalyst, he, (or even a she, how would that work out?) just needs to be around for sparks to fly. Or am I merely underestimating the power of having someone close to you deceive you? Does there even need to be physical contact?
I would like to think that my pessimism is nothing more than a sombre delusion, although I've rarely been proven wrong before.
Sigh, cest la vie, no?
Although if it was not for those little flirtatious escapes, we wouldn't come up with songs like "Me and Mrs. Jones," so I suppose its not all that bad.
To my friend(s): I will be there for you when they cheat on you, and I will most definitely need you when they cheat on me.
Me and Mrs Jones,
We've got a thing, going on,
We both know that its wrong,
But its much too strong,
to let it go now...
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